"...Every therapist has bad days."

I do everything possible to make sure my family and friends are happy... Then throw in ROTC and school taking up over 60 hours a week. Then add a job. Then I tried to add a girl.. that wasn't ready. That was dumb.. It's hard even attempting to date when you know your own history and not theirs. There's women from my past that know I'm an asshole. I know I'm an asshole. 

But when this pretty, bright eyed wonder meets you, you can't help but show her your very best.. You'll cancel events, skip class, be late to work, anything to make time for her. Then the stress piles up. Miss a few things and people start breathing down your neck as they watch you under a microscope, waiting for you to fuck up so they have a reason to kick you out. When you get stressed, you do something stupid. It could be as harsh as telling her you don't love her, or as simple as a drunk text reiterating something she's already heard. I wish I could apologize for my mistakes, but I don't even deserve the chance to explain myself.

On a non-related topic, the thought of death (not suicide) is just too comfortable right now. I'm not the type to go emo over a chick (especially when nothing even happened) so that's why I'm curious as to why I feel comfortable with the idea right now. I've learned many lessons this year, so I can pass some knowledge on to you. Take what you can from this.

This is YOUR life. If you live to make everyone else happy, you will hate yourself.

The last easy day was yesterday.

If she turned you down three times, get out of there. In a good way.

Friends want to help you as much as you want to help them. Give them that chance, you may be surprised.

You can't win a war on your own. Make good friends.

Do something extraordinary, every day.

If you don't trust 'em, toss 'em.
Stress isn't worth you wasting your time.

Be everyone's best friend.

Don't give up on the war just because you lost a battle.

Don't accept "good enough"

When in command, take command.
If you ain't having fun, you ain't doin' it right.

He who fails a thousand times is better than he who never tried.

This is YOUR life. Go do something amazing.

-T