"California Dreamin"

Wow, what a week...

So I got off work Tuesday afternoon and we decided to pack up and go to California! Left AZ late Tuesday night to reach the Santa Monica coast just before sunrise Wednesday morning. Got a free early check-in and a loyalty member discount at the Ritz-Carlton, all while wearing flip flops, jeans, and a neon green tank top hahaha. Slept on a ridiculously comfortable bed. Explored Santa Monica, got a Jeep Wave while walking on the sidewalk (badass). Walked the Venice beach and boardwalk for hours. Checked out the Santa Monica Pier all lit up at night. Visited the California ScienCenter. Walked through the heart of Hollywood for an afternoon. Then we came back to AZ early Friday morning for a day and left for the Grand Canyon Saturday morning. Passed sports cars and ricers, in the Jeep (like a boss). Checked out most of the south rim of the grand canyon by sunset, drove around the canyon to Page, AZ. Woke up the next morning and drove out to Antelope Canyon. Awesome view, amazing photos, a once in a lifetime experience. From there we headed back south, stopped in Sedona for a bit, and finally ended up home. Oh, and I woke up to a beautiful woman every day, that was nice.

"5-1-5-0"

Life is good and back to normal, there is a small amount of self doubt finding its way back into my life though. But the positives far outweigh the negatives. I'm doing the best I have with what I've got, and I'm gonna keep it up!

-T

"Driving Me Crazy With That Kiss Me Smile"

I'm fucked. Hahaha :)
I guess I'm just gonna roll with this.. After I sleep for like 176 hours.

-T

"Returning to the Throne"

Well, I'm back in the throne for king asshole haha. At least no one's getting hurt this time. So I guess I'm the robin hood of assholes? Not gonna lie, it would be nice to be that prince in shining armor. Just once..

-T

"Picking up the Pace"

To the handful of people still reading this, and bringing it up to remind me, thank you. You are driving me to keep this going.
A bit of recent news, I went camping about a week ago, that was pretty awesome. We left Tempe Sunday night and got up to Payson a few hours later. My friend that drove his car up got a flat tire a few miles out of Payson. We went and got it patched up with a cheap wal-mart kit. After we refilled it we discovered a bubble in his sidewall which meant his tire was useless.. We had to stay in a hotel overnight and get a new tire in the morning. After that we drove up to the camp site and it was relaxing for a good while. I took the girls out on a small scout hike just to check out our surroundings. Taught them how to use a bow too, that was a lot of fun. On the way back though, I spot some unusually white rocks in a grassy patch.

I go check it out to see a fresh killed elk skull and some assorted bones. We set up camp 200 yards from a damn mountain lion hunting spot! hahaha. I showed the girls the skull and we went back to camp. We were all fine and relaxed until the sun went down. After most of them fell asleep I heard something bigger than us shuffling leaves and breaking branches no more than 50 yards from the camp; I had a damn panic attack. That was the first one since I was a little kid, I hate that feeling of having absolutely no control.. After that finally ended, I racked my pistol and kept it under my pillow the rest of the night. I think the reason I freaked out is that I was the only one there that has actually seen a mountain lion in action, I've seen what they're capable of. I guess ignorance really is bliss..
One of the girls was freaking out too; that girl I met at the wedding haha. I held her the rest of the night and that's when I was actually comfortable enough to sleep. But every time she heard something she shook and woke me up haha. It felt good knowing that I could calm her down. That lasted until just before sun rise.

Keep your eyes on the horizon.
-T

"Welcome Back"

First post in a while.. I can't think of much to fill you guys in on. Just been a lot of parties and general time wasting. Oh! I got my Jeep! That's pretty much been the best part of this summer. I took it out hiking the other day. I went out to weavers needle in the superstitions, really good hike. See, I took off on that hike looking for a sign of the Lost Dutchman's Gold. But I found this box instead. The box was hidden under the shade of a lone pine tree in the superstition mountains. I moved to open the box and found notebooks and journals. First hand accounts of the hike, life stories, just what I needed to read.

I do have more to write, but I'm going to get back to work. Take care.

-T

You can tell more about a man by what he says about others than what you can by what others say about him.

I want to live by that. From now on I will make a move towards this train of thought.

*2 hours later*

Fuck. The one thing I want right now is a woman to shatter me into a million pieces. I just had to do that myself. On the other end of that issue is a level of discomfort that I never want to feel again. I could never put her through that. I don't want anyone to have to feel that. It would be nice to just turn off feelings for someone. Liquor helps. Now I'm not a straight whiskey guy but I've taken down half a bottle thinking about her. It's not working...